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[13 Oct 2002|10:22am] |
What kind of porno would you star in?
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very interesting thought i'd have a better one
don't really have much to say
me russel and sara and rico are going to great america saturday
yeah
russel goes to misouri for boot camp then to texas to train for four years
should i stay or should i go now!!!! hehe
i don't know what to do
on a lighter note josh is being very friendly maybe mandy won't put out so now he likes me again
well i will have to see what happens i don't want to have sex with him untill we are in a relationship because i really want to respect myself this time. let's see if it's just sex he wants
well got to go laundry and a paper await
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| no man or woman is worth crying over & the one who is won't make you cry |
[23 Aug 2002|01:08pm] |
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not much to say today. got into the classes i neede to which is great now i don't have to worry about it. got to get a dentist for anna she has a cavity. got to call the doctor to get some cough medicne lots to do.
russel was over last night we got really drunk went for a walk
he told me that i'm the first girl he ever loved
i do believe him because i know how much i love him too.
it's great to have someone who cares
andy came home a few days ago he has not called me to hang out
fuck him he probably called josh a million times to see him . oh well that's what you get when your friends with your ex's best friend
i hope to meet his girlfriend angie she seems nice enough
or maybe she's just trying to be nice she is josh's girlfriends best friend so she might hate me too.
how cute that two best friends are fucking two bestfriends. note the sarcasim get a life you guys there are more than two women in this world.
went to walgreens tonight bought some lotion and stuff for anna and stupid me left it there
i must be tired or just insane
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| male strippers yummy! |
[17 Aug 2002|12:48pm] |
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ok so tonight i went to the airport lounge with kelley
it was a very new experience. the strippers were fucking hot and i paid this guy ROMEO to dance all over her. she loved it nad then he went and asked for her number she gave him her work number but was very hesitant to do so. she has a boyfriend but when are you ever going to have a chance to have sex with a guy like that. lucky slut hehe she better go for him.
russel and i got drunk last night we were up till 7 am
time seems to pass so fast when we are together it's wonderful
he tells all his friends that we have been together for a year and still have not fought. they all give him an evil look and tell him that their girlfreinds all fight with them about stupid shit.
we are the most perfect couple :)
i am finally able to register for class which is nice since they start in like two weeks . the people at the school totally screwed up the system and i couldn't register online. damn know i probably won't be able to get into a&p 2 that is the only class i really need to take this semester the other ones will be a bunch of bull shit classes that just take up time and money.
it's joshes birthday on the 18th and me and anna are going shopping early in the morning for a present for him . lucky me but atleast she'll have fun picking out something for him. even if we don't get along she still needs a father.
better get to bed sleepy
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| fuck the police |
[15 Aug 2002|12:33pm] |
alot has happened this week
sara had her wedding and it went pretty well i got all dressed up and looked good
josh was an asshole the whole night i had to dance with him for the wedding party dance which was horrible. we don't even connect on any level now
then to top it off he decides to give this slut at the reception his phone number right in front of me. not that i care but i don't understand why he must try to hurt my feelings
then he goes and makes some stupid comment about how i should believe all the lies russel is telling me just to fuck me
because he would do the same thing. welll he has done the same thing lie to me to fuck me. what a dick.
russel and i are doing pretty good though he's a sweetheart we went to great america monday on a whim which was the best day i have ever had with a person of the opposite sex. i won us matching watches from one of those grab machines. i rock
other than that not much is new
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| mama said knock you out |
[02 Aug 2002|12:11am] |
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well i'm at home doing laundry
trying to register for classes and all
i can't because i was dropped from UWM but i went to talk to a lady and she said she would re enroll me. damn this sucks i need to get into school. but other than that not doing much right now laundry is drying. getting sleepy........ughhhh
tonight i'm going to the ll cool j concert i really don't know who the fuck he is the only popular song i know is the mama said knock you out one. oh well i'm goin with russel it should be fun :)
i love my guy (sigh)
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| whoop de do basel ...what does it all mean? |
[01 Aug 2002|01:27pm] |
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today was pretty boring. went to school played with anna the usual
saw sara today she's upset because i told her mom that i was buying alcohol for this weekend. i didn't think her mom would mind. i was just joking anyway.
well i am buying stuff and plan on getting drunk
hopefully marie won't say anything stupid or i'll have to kick her ass. i might just do that seeing as how she slept with my daughter's father after we broke up. then said nothing happened. fucking whore!!!! i don't even care that it happened as much because josh is an ass but it just hurts that she was supposed to be my friend and then she went behind my back to fuck him.
we'll we get together friday night so it should be eventful to say the least.. maybe i'll tell her what i think of her before i get drunk i'll be able to defend myself better if she decides to take a swing at me. After i call her a slut and such to her face finally (not just behind her back) she might be pretty pissed and try something. I do believe i have every right to let her know what i think of her i mean it's not like it was just some various ex boyfriend it was my daughter's father how fucking low can you get. blah i hate her so very much. anyway got to have a cig then sleep. you guys in mississippi better say hi to me or i'll be major mad too hehe i might have to go flash my tits some more to feel better about myself or something.
hi to steph and reggie and alex :)
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[31 Jul 2002|12:53pm] |
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well i figure i'll write in this thing since maybe i'll get some fucking comments this time. hehe thanks to the crazy crew from mississippi!!!!!! my brother and his girlfriend and alex left a couple days ago i hope they are safely back. haven't gotten a call or anything so i'm assuming they are all ok..
went to josh's house sunday night that was a big mistake (sunday)
got a lil tipsy on chanpange i think that's how you spell it
anyway i woke up half naked. i don't know what he did to me but i'm sure it's not good. i can't believe that i got that drunk maybe he put something in my drink to fuck me up. typical of him to use me for fun. i found alot of drugs in his closet so i'll assume that the father of my daughter is a fucking loser drug dealer now. it makes me very sad but he's a jerk anyway. i asked him what happened after i passed out and he got really funny about it. he asked me if i was accusing him of anything .....should i worry?
i mean he knows i have a boyfriend now and from the poems i read in his journal i'm thinking he has a new love interest himself
i hate guys
but i have my russel baby who is amazing to me to say the least
i don't know why i still have some sort of attachment to josh though... we have a kid together i guess you can never get over that. i mean i hate that he is a druggie and all and i hate that he has no respect for me as a person...but something keeps holding me back from being completely happy these days. i wonder if that feeling ever goes away.
russel came over last night (monday)
got out of the shower to see him spying through the peep hole to check out girls.. i actually was really hurt by that but it's not like don't look at guys either. after the initial pissed off point we played toe jam and earl (bring back any memories reggie)
hehehe the color in funkatron is still fading ...thought it would have stopped after 6 years.
and also russel has gone back to smoking pot damn!!!! he stopped for a long time because he wanted to find a job but i guess that's out the window. but if that's all he does i guess i'll have to handle it atleast he's not a fucking dealer or addict like josh is. and he doesn't cheat or smack me around either. why can't i find normal guys who don't need some other way than just being normal to have a good time with life. i guess that will be a question to ponder it is late i have school in the morn..
damn this got long i had alot to say about two days hehehe this might be fun
hi to steph and alex and my lil brother xoxoxox
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| family feud is cursed |
[27 Jul 2002|09:05am] |
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just letting everyone know that everyone on that show turned insane and wanted to kill everyone
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[16 Aug 2001|10:18pm] |
your way!! all ways here are MY wayyyyyyyyyy!
ok should i tell josh i still love him? i can't decide i'm not sure if he even cares. I know now why i did what i did to break us up..... the real reason. if i told him would he love me again. do i want him to love me again? I can't stand this at all i'm so confused.
i can't think about anything else so i need to sleep (big sigh)
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[15 Aug 2001|09:18pm] |
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I give myself such very good advice but i very seldom follow it.....that explains the trouble that i'm always in!!!
i really need to quit smoking i'm up to a pack a day yucky!!! I think it's some unconscious death wish i have because i know it could kill me. For me more than others with my blood clotting situation but still i can't seem to stop.....or maybe i don't want to. I have to much stress in life hahah I am finally going to back to school after a three year break which is very good i'm excited. I hope i do well.
Just saw american pie 2 it was funny althought it was really hard to go with scott i still have some sort of feeling for him even though he told me he was gay and broke my heart or maybe it was the other way around oh well!!! He only offered sex about four times last night which is a break from his usual 12.
More illegal stuff i went to a bar with sara last night to test out her fake ID it worked but she almost told some girl that she was 19 duh! oh wait i mean i'm 22.
As boring as life is it could have gotten really interesting last night but still nothing i guess it's good in a way. I need to stay out of jail. heheheh After smoke bombing Mandy's apartment i'm surprized i'm not in it. That was fun but really immature i know i shouldn't do stupid things like that i have a kid and i'm 22. still i'll have that to smile about for a few years atleast.
till next time
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[02 Aug 2001|09:58pm] |
hmmmmmmmmm it's 9:48 and anna is still not in bed i'm about to go kick joel's ass.
life is pretty crappy now :( i need some friends please talk to me boo hoo!!!
i told josh today that i put pictures of his girlfriend (mandy) on the internet serves him right for leaving them on the camera that we both own. (naked pictures at that)
Which was really interesting i never knew an asshole could be that hairy and her nipples are kinda white but hey whatever floats your boat...... right? YUCKY!
although i'm surprised how well i handled the hurt of seeing that. Just knowing she has something i don't anymore and the fact that he is my daughters father really pisses me off. G"RRRRRRR But they will never know unless josh decides to read this which i'm pretty sure he could it's his computer. hmmmmmmm and if you are reading this josh FUCK YOU!!!! you know how good it would have been giving anna(our daughter) a family like we never had!!!
I would never run away like you did you pussy whipped little bitch! hahahah ok enough of that. time to put anna to bed :)
till next time
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[26 Jul 2001|09:19pm] |
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yea!!! i did it i got my first journal. haha ok i don't have anything important to say right now. @%%PuNkOuT%%@
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